My Blog's 1 year anniversary :)

It's been a little bit since I have updated my blog but then tonight it hit me that I started this blog a year ago.  I remember talking to some of my closest family and telling them I just had a head full of craziness going on after my surgery and it was giving me so much anxiety.  I couldn't get my words out when asked how I was doing, or what was I thinking about.  Everyone was telling me to journal or blog and one day, not knowing what I was doing, I just did it.  Wow what a difference that made for me!! To just get my feelings out was almost like seeing a therapist :)  I have reflected back on some of my post and they make me smile and cry all at the same time. It seems like so much has happened in the last 12 months but yet it flew by so quick.

This blog has been so much to me over the past year.  It has shown my cancer journey, no subject left unturned.  How I am scared, happy, blessed, depressed, and even just confused all at the same time.   It has shown my vulnerability with life in general.  I have been able to write about life lessons so that maybe someday my children can read about how I lived.  In the back of my head If something happened to me I want my children to be able to see a different side of me as they grow into adults. I have always tried to live a "Real" life but after I got cancer, I made sure that I don't try anymore, I just do :)  When I write, I am me and it feels so good.  It has taken my 40+years to be able to say that I am not scared of what people think but that is one of the biggest changes I have seen since being diagnosed.

Along the way somehow I inspired people and I never thought of that when I started this blog.  Complete strangers have reached out to me from all over the world and that is simply amazing :) I have found that there are so many different faces that are affected by cancer.  Even though we are all different, and our stories are not the same, we are still united by our journey.  It was hard for me to read other people's stories at first because I would end up so sad. It may seem crazy but It is different now.  I pray for peace and a cure for them and myself as I read because at the end of the day that is what really we are all wanting.

I hope that everyone can find some kind of outlet to release their feelings like I have.  It has been a life changer for me, and I am so grateful for those that pushed me to do it!!! xoxoxoxo