Things I wish I realized when I was in high school :)

I have really had a hard time going to sleep at night.  I can't really put my finger on it and am trying to do different things to help myself get some rest. One of those is to make sure while I am laying there with spinning thoughts in my head,  I am only thinking happy ones while I close my eyes.  With that being said, last night when my head hit that pillow I started compiling a list of "What I thought I knew" when I was growing up.  I found myself really getting a kick out of what I would tell my high school self today:) I am pretty forgetful so it is important for me to write these down sooner than later so where better to write them:)  I am really curious who else ever thinks about these things or is it just my new crazy mind:) This is exactly what I would say:

1) Try harder in school, School is important!! You do not go to school just to for social reasons, such as parties and who's dating who.

2) Wear whatever you want. Nobody will notice the name brands and no worries if they do. Really who gives a crap.

3) Get involved and join choir, who cares what people think! Do something you enjoy, even if you aren't the best singer :)

4) Your hair is really not that important, and it is as big as you could possibly get it. Also, the ozone layer could really use a break from all that Rave!

5) Don't park your car away from everyone else because, Hey, you have car and who cares if it's a 74 banana yellow Vega :)

6) Girls can be so mean, so don't waste your time on those friendships because they really aren't friends in the first place.  Just stay completely clear :)

7) As mean as girls can be, Boys are just as weird. Remember that boys think a lot different then girls do , and you will NEVER understand them ;)

8) Dressing like a twinkie with your bestie was cute, or at least you thought it was ;) 

9) 40 is really not that old! and not everyone has a life expectancy of 60....

10) Please look into going to college, you could have totally done it on your own!!! And you will save yourself from getting your degree at 40, while working full time and raising a family... Ugh :(

11) Work was important for you to survive but you will have the rest of your life to work 40 hours a week. So take some time off.

12) Not everyone is going to like you, and that is ok!! Don't change yourself to try to impress people. It's nothing you did wrong, it just is what it is....

13) You have no idea what Being in "Love" is. It's completely fine being single and you will probably have more fun than the "In Love" teenagers:)

14) When someone asks you what you want to do when you grow up, while being a mom is great, maybe not the thing to stride for so young...

15) Making mistakes are part of growing up. You are going to make a ton so don't dwell on them. It's what you learn from the mistakes that is most important.

16) You are not going to miss anything important so who cares if you can't go to the party in the cornfield on Friday.  There is always next time :)

17)You are not fat... Why do all girls think they are fat! 

18) You are not indestructible, don't be naive.  Anything can happen at any time so never put yourself in bad situations.

19) Purple passion is not as good as you think it is :)

20) Don't be in a hurry to grow up, enjoy your time in the present and most of all enjoy being young:)

There are a couple more but I will keep those to myself ;)  I think the biggest thing is that I wish I didn't grow up so fast.  That wasn't completely my choice because of my environment but I wish I slowed down and just enjoyed being a young, care free person.  I do have some regrets from the past but who doesn't.  Now I refuse to have any!

I am grateful for all the memories of the past, present and future.  In reality doesn't your past make you the person you are today? Deep night time thoughts, aren't they great:).  I could always take that little pill my doc gave me to help me sleep but I choose to just let my mind go to all bananas with these crazy memories :):) As long as they are good ones, right!!!